Frozen

In the middle of the night I see you; clearly marking the path to the road of uncertainty. Dangerously, I flirt with the romanticism of the memories, and I wonder if you still do too.

The room is dark; almost the same color of our memories, the ones we managed to create in the middle of our fears; Afraid of loving, of living, of loosing; sharing that last moment, living for the last moment.

Frozen in the center of my mind are the feelings, locked and trapped in the cold, hard sense of regret and guilty pleasures. The ideas that once were, are nothing more than mere ghosts of lost hope.

And this is how we choose to go; disappear inside our memories, in desperate pledge for forgiveness and peace. I chose your lines for my play, as I am sure, you have chosen mine.

I say farewell as I have done so many times, with one hand in my heart, a new casualty for my hopes, and the fear of your sudden comeback, in the shape of a song, a smell, or a word.

How can you be somewhere else, when you never left?

Freedom!

You have escaped out of my heart,
released, without the honor that I used to have
You proved me wrong, in every side
you are free to go, and to never come back

Your essence has gone, beyond my mind
Now there are only ashes, from a burned life
I emptied my feelings, I emptied my heart
and from you, there's nothing left, it is all past

I wished this never happened, but this is life
as unfair, as cruel, as wise and precise
You have finally departed, it's over now
and with you, you take my broken dreams, a debt to life

You continue your path, alone, in further dark
As for me, I found myself, again inside
I now can flight away, follow my path
my chance has just begun, my hope means life

You played your cards alone, and that's all right
I now belong to me, am free to fly
My memories erased, the sweet and kind
Now I can see quite clear, your cruel, cold heart

Am gone, away from you, and there is not turning back
I am able again, to own my heart
My wonds will heal someday, I will survive
and you, who never were, will never come back.

Infinite instants

For one moment, I dream,
I dare to dream that you are here.
For one instant, I feel
I dare to feel your touch,so close to me.

One fear covered in sugar clouds
life experiences that shielded my heart.
Secrets of my conscience never left
but I dared to dream, to feel, to let.

A word that makes my soul feel warm.
A dream that completes my missing path.
A desire, that for a change, doesnt burn.
A smile, that I feel mine, that is so close.

Descriptions that make sense just to us.
A complice in crime, in life, in goals.
Lonely mental break that completes its run.
tired, really hurt, but never willing to give up.

For one moment, I live
I feel your heart right inside me.
For one second, I hope
that when I say a good bye, there will be a return.

Random thoughts of desire and pleassure
Resolve my mind and releases my preassures
complex chain of daring sorrows
collapses in you, my kindest warrior

SDIH (2006)

For one moment, I dreamed...

I dreamed abstract had no shape,
or science had no logic
I dreamed memories were empty
and love was foolish

For one moment, I dreamed.

For one second, I escaped
For one instant, I could laugh
and forever I loved you
and forever you were mine.

for more than just a moment,
my heart needs peace
for less than just a moment,
my mind needs real
forever and for always,
life does go on

relative description, of a broken heart.
empty definition, of a senseless mind.

For one moment, I dreamed...
I dared to dream

For one second I thought,
I should get real

For one instant my life was far from here
Just like you, just like me.

SDIH (2006)